Dear Baby,

Dear Baby H...
        today, I peed on a plastic stick...I had a feeling you were inside of me...but Daddy didn't believe me.  All my friends are getting ready to have their babies in the next month or two and I was so sad, because I didn't know I had you. 
        My whole life, I wanted to be a mommy.  But things weren't looking good for that.  This came up, that came up, my health became a bit weird...I was so scared I would never have you.  I cried, and prayed, and talked with Daddy, my friends, and Nana too! 
        And today, when I looked at that stick, it showed a + sign...God has funny math you know....1+1=3.  I am going to go to the doctor on Monday and probably a lot more in the next several months.  I am going to spend a lot of money and time...loving you! 
      You already make me tired, and sometimes sick to my stomach.  You make my heart flutter with joy and my smile can't fall off my face.  Daddy told me today, "Don't tell anyone, we need to go to the doctor to be sure first!  Honey, stop smiling!  All our friends will know immediately from that smile that you are pregnant!"  But I can't stop smiling, and I don't care if everyone figures it out...I'm just super happy today.
      That silly little stick changed my entire day...and you will change my entire life.  What a special blessing you are to Daddy and I.  I can't wait to count your fingers and toes and see what hair color you have (I'm voting for blonde or red...but Daddy says brown).  I want to hear you laugh and hold you when you cry....
It is pretty crazy that less than 12 hours ago, I peed on a stick...and it changed everything...I cannot believe how much I love you little Baby...

One year later - 2/28/2014

Baby Samuel James...your hair is brown...your eyes are still steely gray...they haven't decided if they will be blue or brown yet...you weigh about 17.5 pounds...where did my little baby go!?  You are 15.5 weeks old..and my heart overflows with joy!  Your daddy is a wonderful husband to me, which helps me be a better mommy, and a great daddy already to you...he holds you when you cry, he sang to you the first time he held you in the hospital(most precious moment of that day, besides getting to hold you myself!)...he makes the funniest faces when he changes your dirty diapers...he hums and bounces you, and loves you like no other!  You definitely changed our world...and we wouldn't have it any other way! 
One year ago, I found out that you were coming...and I'm so glad you did.  You are a constant example of God's grace and blessing!  We are so proud at how healthy you are and how fast you're growing and learning.  You just started liking Baby Einstein videos, grabbing things around you, testing out your voice, and playing in your jumperoo! 
You are my sunshine, my joy, my little love, and my son, whom I love with all my heart.