1+1=3...God does funny math...

This is more of a personal blog of the last few months....not a food related one :-)

After having a few very odd "cycles" in 2012....
I went to see a NP at an OB/GYN in December who told me in not so many words, that I didn't have a real job(which I did, just no insurance...which I guess doesn't count as a "real job" in her eyes), was very healthy with an odd cycle, and that I didn't want to be pregnant right now(because I didn't have a real job).  She would not prescribe me the progesterone that I probably needed, and she told me to come back and see her next year. 

That whole experience did NOT sit well with me at all.  I could NOT believe how rudely I had been treated, simply for not having insurance (I did pay CASH, on the spot)...and people wonder why I hate the medical field so much! So I started doing my own research....What could I do to help myself without the "medical" interference.  I started taking a more complete multivitamin, a half dose of B-vitamins, a vit-D suppliment....I changed my eating habits... almost strictly organic whenever I could, lots of eggs...soooo many eggs....and bacon too :-P I started researching "fertility" diets....I didn't even want to get pregnant necessarily, I just wanted to stabilize my body.

So this continued for a while...nearly sobbing as friends posted sonogram pictures on FB...wondering why with everything I had always done healthwise, I was having to take all of these extra steps to help myself...The 3 tests I had done in December all said I was perfectly normal and very healthy.  And I still didn't "regulate"....

Then the house we signed a contract on, fell through...due to a ridiculous LEGISTICAL problem with the form of Daniel's employment. 

Some of you may remember that very emotional post from February...when we lost the house we wanted so badly...and that I briefly mentioned problems with having a baby...well, what I didn't know then, was that there was a reason for my abundance of emotions...besides just disappointment.

I was about 3.5 weeks pregnant at the time.

I had been having "symptoms" but testing negative....I just chalked it up to crazy hormonal problems...or cancer...or a tumor...I was becoming quite concerned....

Then a couple days after the loss of the house, I took the last test I had...and seconds later, it was positive!  I was elated!  And terrified! All in the same moment!  We just lost the house....where would we put the child?  What if my crazy hormones reject the baby?

Daniel and I decided to wait till 12 weeks to "announce" anything...if I even carried the baby that long.  I had my pregnancy confirmed when I was 6 and a half weeks via ultrasound....got to see the heartbeat!  We told family and some close friends, mainly to ask for prayer...and some support...I needed someone to talk to :-)

I had a midwife exam at 10.5 weeks and heard the heartbeat:-D...and tested the usual...and so far, so good...


We still do not have insurance...we probably will shortly, through my job, but I do not know if I want to work full time AFTER the baby is born... a bridge we will cross later.  But I have decided to go with a midwife and homebirth for my birth plan.  Yes, I could end up in the hospital for one reason or another, but Lord willing, Baby H will be born at home!

Both of our families are very excited!  The grandmas are already wanting to buy baby stuff :-)  And the 2 great-grandmas are absolutely thrilled!

We still need a place to live though...our itty bitty apartment is busting at the seams WITHOUT a child in it...and all the extra things that children come with...let alone we have no washer/dryer in our apartment...and I know this sounds wimpy, but I REALLY do not want to do the laundromat thing with a baby carrier...loading and unloading a child every day with all the laundry...let alone the expense (3$ a load!)

So keep Daniel and I in your prayers as we continue this journey...please pray for a continuing healthy pregnancy and a new place to live! 

Thanks for reading all!

In love,
Becca H.