This is more of a personal blog of the last few months....not a food related one :-)
After having a few very odd "cycles" in 2012....
I went to see a NP at an OB/GYN in December who told me in not so many words, that I didn't have a real job(which I did, just no insurance...which I guess doesn't count as a "real job" in her eyes), was very healthy with an odd cycle, and that I didn't want to be pregnant right now(because I didn't have a real job). She would not prescribe me the progesterone that I probably needed, and she told me to come back and see her next year.
That whole experience did NOT sit well with me at all. I could NOT believe how rudely I had been treated, simply for not having insurance (I did pay CASH, on the spot)...and people wonder why I hate the medical field so much! So I started doing my own research....What could I do to help myself without the "medical" interference. I started taking a more complete multivitamin, a half dose of B-vitamins, a vit-D suppliment....I changed my eating habits... almost strictly organic whenever I could, lots of eggs...soooo many eggs....and bacon too :-P I started researching "fertility" diets....I didn't even want to get pregnant necessarily, I just wanted to stabilize my body.
So this continued for a while...nearly sobbing as friends posted sonogram pictures on FB...wondering why with everything I had always done healthwise, I was having to take all of these extra steps to help myself...The 3 tests I had done in December all said I was perfectly normal and very healthy. And I still didn't "regulate"....
Then the house we signed a contract on, fell through...due to a ridiculous LEGISTICAL problem with the form of Daniel's employment.
Some of you may remember that very emotional post from February...when we lost the house we wanted so badly...and that I briefly mentioned problems with having a baby...well, what I didn't know then, was that there was a reason for my abundance of emotions...besides just disappointment.
I was about 3.5 weeks pregnant at the time.
I had been having "symptoms" but testing negative....I just chalked it up to crazy hormonal problems...or cancer...or a tumor...I was becoming quite concerned....
Then a couple days after the loss of the house, I took the last test I had...and seconds later, it was positive! I was elated! And terrified! All in the same moment! We just lost the house....where would we put the child? What if my crazy hormones reject the baby?
Daniel and I decided to wait till 12 weeks to "announce" anything...if I even carried the baby that long. I had my pregnancy confirmed when I was 6 and a half weeks via ultrasound....got to see the heartbeat! We told family and some close friends, mainly to ask for prayer...and some support...I needed someone to talk to :-)
I had a midwife exam at 10.5 weeks and heard the heartbeat:-D...and tested the usual...and so far, so good...
We still do not have insurance...we probably will shortly, through my job, but I do not know if I want to work full time AFTER the baby is born... a bridge we will cross later. But I have decided to go with a midwife and homebirth for my birth plan. Yes, I could end up in the hospital for one reason or another, but Lord willing, Baby H will be born at home!
Both of our families are very excited! The grandmas are already wanting to buy baby stuff :-) And the 2 great-grandmas are absolutely thrilled!
We still need a place to live though...our itty bitty apartment is busting at the seams WITHOUT a child in it...and all the extra things that children come with...let alone we have no washer/dryer in our apartment...and I know this sounds wimpy, but I REALLY do not want to do the laundromat thing with a baby carrier...loading and unloading a child every day with all the laundry...let alone the expense (3$ a load!)
So keep Daniel and I in your prayers as we continue this journey...please pray for a continuing healthy pregnancy and a new place to live!
Thanks for reading all!
In love,
Becca H.
